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I've realized just recently that there are five things that I want to do in my life that would make me really, truly happy: travel, write at my own leisure, take amazing photos, have a family, and start my own business.

While I can't really do much about the last two things, the first three are stuff usually reserved for the filthy rich and famous, two things which I am not. I can't afford to drop everything and go on a world tour and take pictures and write. I can't even afford a bus ticket to CamSur this weekend. But since I am a stubborn one, I've hatched a plan that will enable me to fulfill my desires and still earn money at the same time, enough for me to do the last two things that I want in peace.

Let's hope this one works! Go go go Roro!

Just about a year and a half ago, I was so ready to quit television.

Working in television production made me realize what an incredibly strenuous industry it is. The stress, insomnia, eyebags, erratic weight gain and loss along with a barely above minimum wage salary just didn't seem worth it. After all, call center agents experience the same things but they walk away every payday with fatter wallets and full stomachs.

When the time came for me to find a new job, I decided I've had enough with television. Working in production taught me a lot of things, and it was made even more special by the fact that worked for something I love - basketball. Not to mention work with one of the best production crews ever. But that was it. I'm done. And I'm also never going to work in Makati again.

Or so I thought.

Now I'm back to square one - working for a tv company in Makati, two things that I swore to myself I would never go back to. It's been barely two months and I've already had my share of ups and downs, highs and lows, high stress weeks and low loads. And I'm guessing that there will be more to come.

So why do I stay here?

I guess the answer is behind me, on our living room television that is tuned in to ETC.

Seeing something you spent hours staring in front of a computer screen being aired on national tv.

It's the best damn feeling in the world. :)

... gone.

 

Some stupid person lost her phone in the MRT this morning. So until she gets her new sim card from Globe, you probably won't be able to contact her through SMS and phone calls.

Yup, that's me.

Will update you once I get my life back.

... go to the BEACH!

Ocean. Sun. Surf. Sand. I need you. And I need somebody to go with too.

So here's a rundown of what I did this week:

Monday - First day of work (hurrah!). Took the MRT-jeep route during rush hour for the first time (no hurrahs here). The commute was absolute torture, but hey, what can I do, I've got to get to work before 9:30. Went to work. Met the premiums team. Got "fingered" (haha). Had my first shoot/party at Warehouse 135 for the viewing party of America's Best Dance Crew. Fell in love with Sober Club. Please get them for your parties.

Tuesday - Second day. Finally got the hang of writing and understanding job orders. Did my first revised plug. Endorsed my first brand bug. Went to another party, this time at Seranade Hall for the viewing party of Gossip Girl Season 2. Envied the person who won a trip for two to Bora. Fell in love again, this time with a king - Margarita King.

Wednesday - Went up to the mountains for the first time. Too bad it was a game day, but I still got to see some old friends. Ate lunch at OL - great view by the way. Went back to Makati to edit. Went to Araneta afterwards to watch (or not watch) the game.

Thursday - Had a windfall of job orders. Edited. Edited some more. Edited even more.

Friday - Edited. Didn't eat lunch. Had a minor shoot crisis. Went to another party, this time in Absinth. Saw some guys wearing briefs. Ate sisig and liempo. Had midnight "snack" at Metrowalk. Went home very, very tired.

Saturday - Met with Arci and Sir Mico to officially "resign" - it was nice while it lasted. I learned a lot of things from my 3 month stint at marketing. Went to MoA to buy a gift for Aia. Watched A Very Special Love. Haha.

Sunday - Went to Aia's 3rd birthday party. Fun day, although we had a little problem when someone was asked to go back to work immediately. Haha.

 

 

Well, I did say I wanted to be busy again. :)

Nobody gives out compliments/praises/pats on the back anymore.

Do you know what sucks even more than not knowing what you want to do in life?

Knowing exactly what you want at this point but not being able to do anything about it, by choice or by force.

I have never been a patient person. I wanted to be seven when I was only three. I wanted to go to college when I was still studying chemistry. I wanted to find a job and go out to "the real world" when we were still working on our thesis proposal. I wanted to be successful and financially free when all I have now is barely two years of working experience and a load of credit card bills.

And now I know I what would make me happy and complete, but then again, there's the reality of the situation. Patience is a virtue.

You're right Flo. An idle mind is the devil's playground. And you always want someone to play in the sandbox with you. Even if they don't want to.

 

I have to stop thinking things.

 

I can't wait to start working. I want to be occupied. I NEED to.

This week still has 4 days left in it but I honestly can't wait for it to be over.

Monday morning up until about 9 in the evening was fine. Then it bombed big time.

Tuesday? Pretty much the same.

Wednesday morning was one of the worst I've ever had. I went to SSS and BIR to try to get IDs but I didn't get anything done at all. I braved the streets of Makati during semi-rush hour and had an encounter with the yellow people. Never mind the fact that I only had about four hours of sleep the night before.

Well, I guess the only consolation is that it couldn't get any worse. Or maybe I should have said that. Dang.

Time to bring out the positive thinking guns. And maybe a few bottles of beer.

And thank You, for the people who keep me sane.

I have a job! *waves beer bottle in the air*

I knew I wouldn't be able to leave television behind.